I remember the time…When my youngest was just out of hospital, my husband was going back to work, I was still recovering from my c-section and I had a 3 & half year old and 15 month old. In all honesty, on my first day alone with the kids, I was scared. How was i going to manage, feed, entertain them, from morning to evening. It was a daunting prospect that I was to be in charge of 3 small people and it can all kick off at anytime, with no hope of reasoning with them when it did. I had to find a way to organise myself, the kids and all our independent demands, throughout the day. Somehow I did it for that day and all the days to follow, each day got slightly easier, I learnt from the mistakes of the past, sort advice, read lots and got through it, some days easier than others.
To say I am a bit obsessed with getting a capsule wardrobe is a mild understatement….when I get in my fashion mood, which seems to be pretty often at the moment (am I a shallow mummy???). I want this perfect wardrobe that flows and coordinates with everything else and after my visit from the stylists, my love of fashion and style has been reignited and I want to look put together at all the times…
I have been blogging for nearly a year and how have I found it? Very challenging at times. I have broken the golden rule of blogging and have slacked on my schedule of publishing once a week, numerous times. I am really bad at self promotion and have not really been pushing my blog to people or on social media and I seem to have a funny relationship with twitter – loving and hating it all at the same time!!
My days are getting longer and longer…Work is absolutely crazy – I’m wearing so many different hats in the one role…and the deadlines and demands have exploded…everything was due yesterday, I’m training a new person, I’m expected to have the knowledge of so much at my fingertips…Right now all I can do is put one foot in front of the other and just try to remain focused on each task and do what I need to do. I am keeping a calm exterior most of the time, but inside I have moments of feeling utterly out of control, worried that I am going to miss a deadline, that I will drop the ball on one of my many conflicting demands. Then throw in days of endless meetings and my working day is just a blur of report writing, feedback, speaking and sometimes not even thinking – I’m on auto pilot!
I have been in a bit crap with my exercising recently and have only been working once a week for the last 2 months (which for me isn’t great). In truth I have been bored and too tired to wake up early to exercise. I am trying to get myself out of that unmotivated state and have found a few things that are helping me along the way: